Hi Kath
Sorry to hear about your bereavement, you will find many people in a similar situation on this forum and using Just You. The forum can be a bit much on first glance because there are so many of us talking about so many things, but you have managed to get your post on here so I guess you're doing alright so far!
It is always difficult to know where to start with picking your first holiday. Some people prefer to do a short trip so they don't invest too much time or money if it goes wrong. I would recommend the opposite - pick a dream destination, something that you've always wanted to do or a place you always wanted to go. Whatever you pick in the weeks leading up to it you will have second, third or even fourth thoughts about doing it and have butterflies right up to the minute you arrive at the airport. If you can get through that part, I promise - the rest is easy. Once you meet up with your group you will wonder what on earth you were worried about and you will have the time of your life. A Just You holiday is full of laughs, amazing sights and fantastic company. You are free to do what you want (within the bounds of the itinerary) but you are generally allowed to opt in or out as you wish. You will never be on your own unless that is what you wish. If you see a holiday you like the look of you can look in the Reviews section to see what previous travellers have said, and once you book, post in the 'say hello' section to see if anyone else on the forum is doing the same trip. It is always nice to have been in touch with someone before you travel but don't be put off if no-one replies - not everyone has found the forum.
Best of luck with your choice. If you have any questions at all, we are all very happy to help.
Sally