Like you, my husband and I had planned a trip to New Zealand, but sadly, it never happened. I went on this tour as my first solo long haul 5 years ago. I was so glad I did. Like you I found the prospect daunting, but everything is organised and you will most likely meet others in a similar situation. That said, it certainly won’t be all gloom and doom: there will be many laughs ago the way. Do go and celebrate the life you and your husband shared.